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2007-03-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

Grrrr....

Ok I am pissed! Never have I been cheated of my tuition fees....this agency of mine took all my tuition fees when they should only collect 1/2 of it as commission. I called them and they said they would call me back. When I managed to get them, their excuse was that they wanted to issue a receipt to the customer that showed the actual tuition fee amount. They would sent me the money thereafter. I've been waiting for more than a week and still no tuition fees. When I called them up again, they refuse to pick up.So the love helped me and called them up using his handphone. Turns out the company name thay gave me did not exist and they go by another name. They have so many telephone numbers...I think I have about 6 or 7 of them....all of them are diverted to the same voicemail. The person who answers the phone sounds the same but goes by different names. What else can I conclude other than this might just be a cheating or fraud tuition agency. If they still do not contact me by tomorow, I might just pay a visit to CASE....

2007-03-08T01:37:00.000+08:00

Bloody Neverending Lesson Plans....

2007-01-07T13:22:00.000+08:00

Ok I haven't been updating this blog for about 3 weeks. So I guess I shall do a pictorial update....

Met up with Su n her darling Rina....

Went to see that tree with a colourful bark...

On Christmas Eve found my love in the one I used to love & am still loving now...with new resolutions in hand...I can only hope for the best for us....
Spent my Christmas with the love, Ren. Walking... ok perhaps squeezing thru the Christmas crowds...love the lights n decor...love the big santa...do not love the pushing n shoving people...

Regular meet ups & shopping session with the one I can count on in times of happiness & despair...Siti...

Late nights drinking teh tarik with the love...

Hari Raya Haji & New Year's Eve was a decent but memorable one with the love, Siti & Suhaila...

Finally semester 2 of my final year begins tomorow...7 weeks more before the teaching practice starts*nervous*...so far 2007 has been good...hopefully it stays that way....

2006-12-16T15:42:00.000+08:00

Stab video...sensational or objectional??

Was browsing thru the papers today and the article on the stabbing video caught my attention. It mentioned distributing uncensored films via the internet could be offensive. I dun quite agree. After watching the video, it made me realise that such occurances should be made public but with proper censorship of course.
Found the video on YouTube and I had to verify that I am a registered user and was aware that the video contained some inappropriate content(some what like a warning).
Yes true the 2 1/2 minute video can be disturbing but it also got me thinking...
Where the hell are the police?Y didn't the some of the passers-by do anything?Did the person who recorded the video actually called the police and reported the matter before attempting to record the incident??
Ok perhaps the police couldn't simply fly over and come to the rescue like Superman...what about the man in white?He was just watching helplessly...I understand that the attacker was holding a knife but goodness, there were 3 men around and one with a helmet in hand...I have to hand it to the man in blue.....really admire his courage, he simple took the helmet and tried to hit the attacker with it....civic mindedness...if the 2 men had not interfered...I think the lady would have been stabbed to death while the other passers-by merely became somewhat like spectators watching a horror show.
Hmm...what if I was 1 of the passers-by??Well I would do what a civic-minded person would do..DIAL 999.Would i interfere with the attacker?Hell no!I feel like puking at the very sight of a pool of blood, why would be so brave as to do that?!perhaps if I was a guy, it would have been a diff story.
So ya I think the video is not only sensational(i have nvr tot that i would see sch a graphic video of an incident occuring in SG) but also objectional(it's content can be quite disturbing for the faint-hearted). Still it shud be exposed...at least it got people like me thinking about what I would have done had I been there myself...
You have been warned...the video can be disturbing...

2006-12-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

Shopping Spree...

I went on a shopping spree today with the long awaited year-end bonus. 6 hours of non-stop shopping...and Mr Ren was my 'tukang angkat' shopping bags.
First on my shopping list...a new hp. I went to the new Nokia centre at Scotts Shopping Centre. My 2 yr old dedicated Mitsubitshi phone is failing me. It kept losing it's network yesterday so I decided to get the new Nokia N73 music edition. Got a bluetooth headset, 126MB thumbdrive with it for free. So dats one shopping bag for Mr Ren to carry!
My bestfren told me abt the 30% off Coach items at DFS. So that's where I headed next. Was disappointed...the model I wanted was not on sale...not only dat since it was limited edition, the stock at DFS was all sold out.Damn!
So to make myself feel better, I went to Guess since they're having their year-end sale...been wanting to buy a new pink colour tee...and it so happen there was one that attracted my eye going at 50% off.So that makes the second bag.
Next I was off to Far East to look for shoes...disappointed, coz they didn't have my size. I was still not happy abt not being able to buy the Coach bag so I decided to try the Coach boutique at Taka. But before that, we(Mr Ren & me) stopped by A/X and I found the tee I have been eyeing for going at 30% off. And that's the 3rd shopping bag for Mr Ren.
So off to Coach we went and l was super elated that the bag I wanted was available. Asked the sales advisor for a new piece and was about to pay for it with my debit card, then...
she entered the transaction as cash by mistake. So I told her I can pay by cash. I still can't forget the priceless look on the sales advisor when I told her dat.*smiles*
Den Mr Ren said, "Ok I think that's enough before you overspend!" and I complied. Afterall I have most of the things in my shopping list and the bill for the day was beginning to accumulate to a figure more that my monthly pay.Thanks Mr Ren!
So shud I call it materialism or pampering...hmm...how abt both...at least I have the guts to admit it(Janji aku happy!)...oh and ya, I LOVE being a civil servant!I think my fellow colleagues would agree too...

2006-12-08T13:50:00.000+08:00

Holidays....

I haven't been blogging because I have been going out almost everyday ever since the school holidays have started. Did the things I wanted to do when I was stuck @ home mugging for the exams...what else but shopping....I went to the great JL sale, Big Boyz Toyz & Sitex at the Expo. To be exact I went to the Expo thrice!Hehee....
Oh ya we had another b'day surprise for Atie & Khaty on 27th Nov....here's a collage of it...

And finally I got to catch some movies...been wanting to do that for so long....dunno y but I love cartoons...so I watched Happy Feet & Open Season on the days they opened in cinemas...can't wait to catch more movies...
Oh ya I even got to fulfill my cravings...ate at Secret Recipe...I will never forget their banana chocolate cake....truly heaven....also went to Changi Village to eat nasi lemak...it's been a long time since i entered a long queue just to eat a plate of nasi lemak(ok i didn't que,sum1 else did it for me and d nasi lemak was as expected DELICIOUS TO THE LAST GRAIN!). Oh ya I also got to eat my fav ayam penyet...the sambal still brings a ZING to my tongue but I love it!
Actually I pretty much went around SG from the east to the west...there's this one particular park I visited with Siti & Ren(we were from east coast den headed to this park den to west coast, like i said east to west)...coz we had no idea where else to go...and we decided to explore...Siti claimed there was this tree which looked unique...it's bark had different colours..purple,yellow,pink,etc....just like wen u mix diff colours of plasticine...I'll try getting pics of it coz we were there at nite and i left my cam at home....the nerve of Siti to bring us there at nite...it's a haunted place actually...
So ya...y am I stuck at home now....coz I'm not feeling well...been taking my medication and it has been making me drowsy.
Once I get better there'll b more places to explore...hehe...dah lama tak makan nasi lemak pepagi buta pat jurong...dats one more queue to join...
Oh ya I'm thinking of driving up to M'sia with some frens....sapa nak join silalah msg ye...

2006-11-18T19:25:00.000+08:00

Enuf of raya-ing...Exam time!

I had my last raya outing last sun with Afah, Ayu, Atie, Nurul & their partners...great fun but with a mishap however I'm ok and so are they....thank God!
Now it's mugging time for my exams...2 papers but a whole lot of info to remember...hopefully I will do ok and pass...
OK gotta get back to mugging...more caffeine for me plssss.......

2006-11-08T12:46:00.000+08:00

RAYA-ing....

Finally I have sum time to blog....Been busy with assignments n tests...However I still manage to go out raya-ing last weekend...
Sat with d Fab 4(and Rendra as d part-time driver):
We were freakily colour coordinated...yes all of us...I had rented another car...a Honda Fit this time...and no it did not get stolen....the day started with me rushing to do last minute additions to my Sastera Essay ASSignment.....I did my essay as we started on our houses...Faizal's place was the first house and I bet the guys n girls have never seen me so agitated....I manage to print otu my essay at Faizal's place but the printer failed me on my last 3 pgs....we had to rush to Ren's place to get it printed(I owe u one Ren!)...den Ren drove coz I was super agitated....and boy did Ren drive....poor Su felt like she got squashed by 2 elephants at d back seat....hehee...sorry u had to endure all that babe!The raya-ing went on well after all that...no accidents(well except for d part where I didn't slow down when I saw a hazard...hehee...) and many many yummy food...we visited about 7 houses...mine being the last one....here are some of my fav shots....

Sun with my lovely Babez.... Siti, Zura & me...our very first raya together....and one that is unforgettable...Started of at my place...they got d first taste of my dad's great cooking...beefsteak....then to Arif's place which was nearby.....off we went to Zura's cousin's place in Yishun...by then it was raining...luckily I had umbrellas in d car. Once the rain stopped we went to Suhaila's place...she joined us after that....and we visited an ex-sec sch mate of mine...rumah tu kecoh...dgn budak2 main kuda kepang....den to CT's place...(we had forgotten to take pics at her place after we went outta d house...sanggup masuk balik ah amik gambar...hehee...)...den we visited Noretta, an ex-schmate of mine n Siti's colleague.....we got lost for a while coz I kept missing the u-turn to get to Noretta's place....finally Zura's place....and our last photoshots were taken with our tired faces...here are some shots...

The rest of pics will be uploaded at my fotopages & multiply accounts....

2006-10-28T19:18:00.000+08:00

I received this from an e-mail & tot I'd ought to share it wif u peeps,especially d ladies.....

Ways to turn down unwanted men

HE : Can I buy you a drink?
SHE : Actually I'd rather have the money.

HE : I'm a photographer. I've been looking for a face like yours.
SHE : I'm a plastic surgeon. I've been looking for a face like yours.

HE : Hi. Didn't we go on a date once? Or was it twice?
SHE : Must've been once. I never make the same mistake twice.

HE : How did you get to be so beautiful?
SHE : I must've been given your share.

HE : Will you go out with me this Saturday?
SHE : Sorry. I'm having a headache this weekend.

HE : Your face must turn a few heads.
SHE : And your face must turn a few stomachs.

HE : Go on ,don't be shy. Ask me out.
SHE : Okay, get out.

HE : I think I could make you very happy.
SHE : Why? Are you leaving?

HE : What would you say if I asked you to marry me?
SHE : Nothing. I can't talk and laugh at the same time.

HE : Can I have your name?
SHE : Why? Don't you already have one?

HE : Shall we go see a movie?
SHE : I've already seen it.

HE : Where have you been all my life?
SHE : Hiding from you.

HE : Haven't I seen you some place before?
SHE : Yes. That's why I don't go there anymore.

HE : Is this seat empty?
SHE : Yes, and this one will be if you sit down.

HE : So, what do you do for a living?
SHE : I'm a female impersonator.

HE : Hey baby, what's your sign?
SHE : Do not enter.

HE : Your body is like a temple.
SHE : Sorry, there are no services today.

HE : If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.
SHE : If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing.

2006-10-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

My Hari Raya Puasa Conversation Starter....

Dis Hari Raya Puasa...pple has been asking me abt d black henna/mehndi on my hands(it was a bit smudged coz I was trying to get thru the Geylang crowd d nite I did it)....and d most common question I get, "Oh u mean there is black henna?" *smiles*

2006-10-21T18:22:00.000+08:00

Going Red....

Finally had the time to rebond, re-colour n re-highlight my hair....no more waking up early to use my straightener to get rid of my curly hair roots....

2006-10-19T22:22:00.001+08:00

And D Story Continues....

I woke up this morning...and the car is still there(phew!)...hehee....
Drove to school with Afah n Ayu as my passengers....Afah replaced Nurul as my 'walking n talking streetdirectory'.....
Arrived at school...as normal had trouble doing my vertical parking....if I could get d poles at SSDC to b there...I would hv placed it there....den I could hv done it under 2 minutes!(macam real jer aku!)Car was parked...all valuable stuff removed...engine turned off. I close the door....and TADAA!....I nvr wind up my window after parking....Ayu's immediate reaction:"MACAM MANA KRETA TAK KENA CURIK?"...so very d mak2 & nenek2...and we couldn't stop laughing after dat....hehee...
Went to class...then when class ended...Afah offered to accompany me to send d car back(Thanks ya Fah!oh n Nurul too,coz she help me ytd).
So I returned d car back to the owner & while I was walking away, guess what I saw?! THE GREY SUZUKI SWIFT that I borrowed(with my p-plate still hanging there)!!!!
So I turn back...and asked for my p-plate n my parking coupons in the car....and also to know how he had gotten d car back....and the story goes:
Some drug addict bugger wanted to give d car a spin...den got caught at a road block...was apprehended but not charged with stealing coz they found the car in less than 24hrs so the car is considered lost but not stolen....he got into the car coz he had a master key....
Dat's d owner's story lah...true or not...Wallahu A'lam bis Sawab....only god knows lah....

2006-10-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

Tired I Am....

Today a day full of events....I borrowed a car last nite...just to practise my driving skills....I got a grey Suzuki Swift.....went driving wif my frens till 4 plus am ....I parked d car at the multistorey carpark near my house....locked it n checked again to see if i've locked it....remembered the level i parked it at....d next day...at around 11.15 am I went to look for d car....it was gone!YES GONE!DISAPPEARED!
Me.....panic...went up to all d levels in d multistorey carpark...still no grey Suzuki Swift...panic even more....den i went back hm...called d owner...she told me not to panic(i dunno y she isn't panicking...HELLO UR BRAND NEW CAR GOT STOLEN??!!)So they made a police report....I managed to borrow another car for the day's events...a Fiat Punto....took some time to get use to it...it's a continental car so everythin is on d opposite side...so i ended up turning on my wiper wen i want to signal the direction I'm goin....hehee...
Den went off to pick Nurul up at YCK MRT...we were suppose to watch a movie but d stolen car episode spoiled our plans....so i went straight to Raffles Place coz we were celebrating Khaiyisha's b'day...at Fig & Olive....believed to be there...arrived there & found out we were at d wrong place....it was at Bencoolen Street....so we headed there...
By d time we arrived...d others had arrived...Khaisyah was surprised n confused by d look on her face...hehee...we surprised her wif d b'day cake then the b'day present she had chosen and we bought on d spot for her....the rest of d nyte went well...hopefully tomorow wen i wake up d car is still there....

2006-10-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

A belated b'day present from me to myself....hahaa...

I woke today feeling very nervous n excited...y?...coz it's my TP test today....went there after class ended with Atie who was doing her practical lessons...did my warm up with the test car.... felt a bit confident coz I didn't screw up except at d slope(I always stall!!)...den took d test...
Once d test ended & I parked d car...d tester scolded me..."U must b careful ah!U check blindspot very late...den u never do safety check before moving off from parking...u'r car stall i tink 4 times...blah blah blah....!" I tot ok....I failed....den after he finish scolding me he said,"Ok u pass."
I was like...WTH!
I pass?I pass!!!
Hehee...so ya...my belated b'day present to myself from myself is d licence to drive...

2006-10-06T02:14:00.000+08:00

I Was Moved To Tears When I Saw This....

Dunno y I sooo emo(PMS??)....Suliana gave me this video a few hrs ago....and i teared....*sob sob*

2006-10-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

Must I go back to sch...??

The week's break has ended...What have I done for d past week that has got to do with schwork?Nothing!
I only started on my DED module's essay just now(this is due today!!*panics*)....On Saturday, I met Lydia to do Prof Roksana's write-up...and even dat is not finished...I have yet to start on my DLK module's assignment(this is due tomorrow!*panics panics*)....so what can I conclude?
I am a very very last minit person...hahaa...wat's new ya?
Neways, I met Siti on Saturday...kita berdating lah...went to break fast together...Siti was giving me a b'day treat and so I decided to eat at Sofra Turkish Cuisine...yummy yummy...thanks Siti...then we headed to Suria Raya Extravaganza's bazaar....I dunno wat d hype was all about b'coz d place SUCKS!I'd rather be shopping at Geylang's bazaar...so after visiting the lame bazaar...we went to chill at Starbucks Bugis....found a Malay guy's wallet at our seat...he came back later to retreive d wallet from us...he quite cute lah..but attached(how did we know?his wallet got his gf's photo)...we headed back home at about 11pm...dats wen I got home n started panicking coz I hv not done my essays....ok I think I shud get back to my DED essay now...

2006-09-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

All Smiles...

@ d stroke of midnite...b'day msgs on my handfon...Su & Rye singing me a b'day song...a b'day candle to make up for d missing b'day cake...photos taken as a memo...
I thought that was it...my b'day this year would b dull without a boyfren to celebrate with...I was wrong...so so wrong!!
I woke up to my best fren, Nora's b'day call...she was singing me a b'day song...then Fee(Triple Noize),a fren whom I'm rarely in contact with called, after such a long time, just to personally give me a b'day wish(A local celeb giving me b'day wish?!so touching!). And d b'day sms-es still continued coming in...Then I logged into frenster & I had 2 b'day testimonials...I'm like wow!I am very very touched and surprised...
The plan for d day was to break fast with Su,Kai,Faizal,Rye,Imran and some other NIE schmates. Everyone was to bring something(Potluck!)I promised to bring a pasta dish(I call it Spaghetti Beef Bolognese ala Fiz...haha, lame!I know).
Arrived at Su's place ard 5.45pm...we later broke fast with d 5 mentioned above plus Farhana,Jaz,Su's mum & bro...solat jema'ah....and then while I was busy talking to my best fren on d fon, at d balcony...
I heard Su playing a b'day song on d piano,Kai pushed me into d living room & Rye was carrying a b'day cake....so it was a b'day surprise!I was speechless, again touched & very very grateful to be amongst such frens.Many thanks for making me smile on my b'day...if I shed tears today it wasn't bcoz I'm still heartbroken...it's b'coz I'm too happy to contain it(but of coz I won't tear in front of u...dun wanna drop my water face mah!)
And the day finally ended with...a call from HIM...just to give me a b'day wish...I could not ask for more...
I am still smiling for no words can describe how all of u made my b'day special this yr...I LUP U MANY MANY LAH!!.. =)

2006-09-26T01:17:00.000+08:00

B'day Surprise Collage...

As promised, the pics from my b'day surprise.....enjoy.....

2006-09-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

Reunited....

Meet up with the ever-gorgeous Siti & very spunky but still 'jambu' Herfah... Window shopped...dinner...sat near d Merlion chatting & laughing our hearts out... A wonderful reunion...hope to do it again girls...

2006-09-22T16:11:00.000+08:00

A Pleasant Surprise...

My b'day is 6 days away...and I had pleasant surprise today when my NIE frens decide to celebrate my b'day & Arafah's.
Acherly the plan as they told me was to celebrate Arafah's belated b'day. So I just went along with it. I was suppose to meet Nurul,Atie, Ayu & Arafah at 0745 at Boon Lay. Class starts at 0930 but we had asked our class rep, Fizah Rebond, to sms Arafah and tell her it was at 0830. So when Afah came, we acted as if we just got to know that the class was acherly at 0930 and we had all received d wrong info.
The plan was to have breakfast and then, Khayisha, Syahida, Rasyidah & Khatijah would appear and surprise Arafah with the b'day cake. I was surprised when they appeared with the b'day cake(mesej pat cake brutal abis!)that had my name on it too!*smiles*
Then came the interesting part...as usual we had to be sabo-ed before we can receive our presents. Arafah was asked to go to the counter & act like the character 'SUTUN', while asking for chilli sauce,serviettes & sugar. I was asked to take one of the serviettes & write my real hp no. & name on it then give it to sumone. And so we did....the lucky someone was a Chinese guy from NJC(young but he quite cute looking lah!).I just came up to him & said,"Hi, my frens r sabotaging me rite now by asking me to give u my name & number.Just take it ya...u dun hv to call...thanks!" I think dat must have made his day...I was even asked to take a photo with him!
Then we ate the cake n breakfast(at Mcdonald's).
What about the prezzies?Well, Arafah got to know abt her present from an MMS. She got the oven that she has been eyeing for. And me, my present was hidden in my bag. I received a pair of Perlini Silver's earrings,necklace & pendant(a kinky pendant indeed!).So many many many thanks to ya gang, all 7 of u who combined my b'day & Arafah's!You made my day today!Love u all lots!For now I shall leave u with d 2 pics...the rest will be uploaded later...

2006-09-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

Overdue...

This is an overdue entry...coz I've been kept busy with 2 presentations this week. So relieved that that's over!I can finally blog abt wat I did last wkend...
Last Saturday, 'the fab 4' as we call ourselves(dun ask me y) gathered for our pre & post b'day gathering. Kai, Faizal, Suliana & me share the same b'day month, September 14th, 26th,27th & 28th respectively.
Initially we were supposed to meet at 5pm but Kai had to attend a kenduri & could only join after 10pm. So I decided to join some frens to go to the Singapore Big Bike Festival.....goodness the Harley Davidson convoy was overwhelming!Oh & I can now declare my new crush(after R1)....the MV Agusta F4. I sooo love the body....ooo...and check out the rear. But ya I'll only ride bikes in my dreams....

So after that, I had my dinner and met Su & Faizal at PS. We plan to go karaokeing...an activity that has been planned & postponed too many times by us. We finally arrived at Apollo Centre at 8pm and karaoked away till 10pm. Su my dear...your rendition of 'Creep' is just awesome...I guess dats coz u sang it from the heart...stay strong babe!Faizal....u nvr fail to be our joker...but yes bro...u can really sing...aku sebenarnye cair dgr konye rendition of 'I started a joke'...another song dat I'm sure had a lot of meaning to you. And me...well let's just say I sang d sad love songs I love to listen to.
Kai joined us after the karaoke session. Finally the Fab 4 was complete. It was great to finally gather together & share updates of our life face to face.Though this b'day gathering had no cakes or b'day songs.....I had fun just singing & hanging out with my dearest frens.Thanks to the 2 hunks & my favourite babe...I leave u with Su's edited pics for that day....

2006-09-14T20:52:00.000+08:00

Am I really feeling better??

I went out with a friend yesterday...ok a guy friend...let's call him Mr F (dun u dare think of that 4 letter word!!)...I won't name him coz I think he prefers to be anonymous....We caught "Little Man" and I acherly laughed like I've never laughed for a long time...That movie is way crude but brutally funny!
So Mr F acherly accompanied me to shop coz I have not shopped(I mean shop n just grab watever I want) for a long time...reason being...all my $$$ went to pursuing my driving licence...yup ...it is super EX to take your driving licence in a driving school...but what to do...I start from scratch and since most of my family & friends recommended taking it in a school instead of privately....I signed up for driving school!
So ya...yesterday...Mr F accompanied me from one shop to another....I went to all my fav boutiques...& each one had something I wanted...in d end I settled for a studded polo tee by AX...no regrets...coz I have nvr felt so happy(yes I AM feeling better but I still miss him*sigh*)...it's been such a long time since I pampered myself with an expensive top.However...my hands r still itching for that gorgeous Bebe top...I wish I could just grab n pay for 'em....but well I guess I have to pass...the family's income not doing too good & I have to help out with d finances....
But thanks Mr F for accompanying me to shop yesterday....oh ya & dun forget I deserve a hug...oopss....I mean a huge b'day prezzie for dat favour I did for u...heehee...oh ya & I can't wait for my TP test...it's on Oct 6...it's my 1st attempt....so I'll pray hard that I pass...pls pls pls....I'm not getting any richer!!!

2006-09-10T00:06:00.000+08:00

TO THE ONE WHO BROKE MY HEART...

I keep looking in all the places,
Where you are supposed to be.
But I never seem to find you,
And you're all I long to see.

I just can't seem to understand,
What it was that changed your mind
All this time I thought I knew you,
When really, I was blind.

But know that I do not hate you,
And I know that I never will.
Because I cared about you then,
And I care about you still.

Even though you hurt me,
I can't seem to let you go.
But I will go on without you,
And I want to make sure you know.

It will take some time to mend,
The damage that you've done.
But broken hearts do heal,
That's where strength comes from.

For now, the tears may be falling,
And my thoughts keep circling to you.
But soon things will get better,
If you have hope, then they always do.

2006-09-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

I'm down....that's all I can say for now....

2006-08-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

It is now the third week of the new semester.
2 assignments in....2 more assignments due this week.....and more assignments being added on.....ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

On another note......I MISS HIM......A LOT....A WHOLE LOT....*sigh*

2006-08-20T15:03:00.000+08:00

I've not been updating my blog coz I've been busy with the new school term in NIE and also the fact that I'm too lazy to type it all out....hehee....
Eversince the new school started, assignments have been pouring in. Lots of readings to be done(what's new?sastera is always about read this and read that...tapi tak terbaca-baca). The new timetable is ok. I have no classes on Wed which is good coz that means I have a mid-week break. I also bumped into some of my ex-schmates from my pre-u days. It was nice to catch up with them and reminisce abt the pre-u days.
I'm tryin to take each day as it comes.The lovelife's not doin so good, so it's affecting everything in some way, but I'm holding on(at least until I can't hold on no more).I guess that's all for now, time to get back to my readings...HIkayat Raja Pasai...just reading the title n i'm feeling sleepy already....

2006-08-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

FunTime....

I had fun hanging out with the NIE peeps today. We went to Sentosa to celebrate Rasyidah's belated b'day. This time the b'day girl was made to dig up her pressies....all four of them...in the sun...hehee.... Actually the weather was weird that day, it was raining in the earlier part of the morning but by afternoon the sun was scorching hot!SO after the cake cutting n opening of pressies, we went for a 4D magix show. That went very interesting with a tourist in the front seat scolding Khaiyisha coz she tot we were kicking her seats wen the seats were actually moving as it was suppose to be an interactive movie!So at the end of the movie, she sheepishly smiled at Khaiyisha...no apologies at all!
Then came my fav part...The Luge...Once is never enough...that's their motto I tink...and it is soo true. My 2nd time taking it and after 3 rides I still wish I could go again... This time the luge was slightly diff coz previously there were no cameras installed. So us being cam-whores...cam-whored all the way....
Afterall that fun, we went seperate ways coz I had to meet Siti for the Godiva Chocolate Desert making session at Citilink Mall. I truly had a chocolateful time watching d demo by the chef n of coz eating the delicious deserts which was FREE OF CHARGE. My day couldn't have ended better!

2006-07-22T00:19:00.000+08:00

Busy...busy...busy....

It's been some time since I last updated my blog. Reason being I've been kept very busy with my grandad's passing away, d kenduri-s being held, my practicum, lessonplans, lesson observations and wat not.....
Now I'm just glad my lesson observation by my NIE supervisor is done. The feedback was positive and I am glad that everything went on fine even though there were some mishaps here n there. I'll just take it as a learning point. I have 1 more lesson observation by my CT & once that is over I can finally enjoy d rest of my hols before my term in NIE starts.*sigh*
It's d weekend & I can't wait to meet up and hang out wif my dearest beloved and of coz my dearest fren, Siti......wohoo....gonna go catch Nacho Libre!!!Pirates of D Carribean:Dead Man's Chest was AWESOME!!

2006-07-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

Goodbye....

After 92 years on this Earth, my beloved grandpa, Haji Hussain Bin Ahmad, who took care of me when I was young breathed his last breathe. You are greatly missed. Innalillahi wa Innalillahi Raji'un......

2006-07-07T19:14:00.000+08:00

Today, on the 7th of the 7th month,I found love once again.....

2006-07-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

Still searching for d answers....

Why do feel the way I feel for u?
Is this feeling for real?
Are u really the ONE?
Do you really feel the same way for me or is it just an act?
Why am I so afraid to reciprocate?
Why must it be soooo confusing??

2006-06-29T01:34:00.000+08:00

Rimassss......
Unsure of my next movessssss.....
Still down n depresssss.....
*sigh*

2006-06-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

Day 1 Of Practicum

Term 3 starts today and my first day was ok but I am exhausted. Probably beause my schedule was packed since 8.35am. I had my practical lesson in the morning which ended at 10.15pm. Then I went to AMK Central to buy the refill ink for my printer and also some printing papers.(there were some documents for practicum that I've yet to print and my stooopid printer ran out of black ink!)On the way back in the bus i met an ex-student of mine. He was one of my P6EM3 students wen I was doing contract teaching. That bugger acherly skipped skool today!
Once I got home I had to change to my teaching attire(hehee....dah lama tak pakai mcm cikgu2...skali pakai rasa kekok!)I had to be in school for the assembly by 12.30 and luckily I was on time!(i left home at 12.10pm and walked there by 12.20pm). I still had to collect my staff pass and some other stuff. Luckily there was no assembly so I was free till 1.30pm where I would be following my CT to her P2 class.
My first day observation was okay. The P2 kids were cute but I know I'm gonna have probs wif this boy, Andrew. He studies Malay but speaks English in Malay class and he's an attention-seeker.I have to get my classroom management skills sharpen for this one. Ni baru P2 lum P3.I will only see the P3s on Wed and Fri.
And I have another problem. Since I am in ALL d sessions,my timetable format for Mon-Fri will stretch from 7.25am to 6.30pm.I have never seen a longer timetable format in my life....KIASU abis!Seriously....I dunno how I am goin to get the format rite to send in my timetable to Prof Paitoon....
So after school ends at 6.30pm,I had tuition at 7pm. I was soo tired due to lack of sleep that I fell asleep accidentally while tutoring!Ishhh....tak senonoh kan?!I even had d cheek to ask my tutee"Did I fall asleep?"hahaa....
I finally got home at 8.35pm...tired and hungry coz I only had a tuna puff in the morn and nothing else. Now after a nice hot dinner and shower.....I'm gonna go get my beauty sleep....siang per tido!

2006-06-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

I had a meeting today at my practicum school. It was at 8.30am and by 9 am I was struggling to keep my eyes open. Luckily I had my dedicated mints with me to keep me awake. It was a meeting that I shudn't even have to attend. I had no head or tail of wat was goin on. They were talking about mental model and wat not....I was just looking forward to d food to b served for lunch...hehee...
Unluckily for me I had another meeting to attend after lunch which was d core/non core group meeting(core?non-core??trust me...I dunno what I'm typing either). So again I attended the meeting for d sake of knowing how d Malay students performed in that school. At least it was more useful than the previous meeting. That lasted for abt an hour plus...
I got to meet my CTs. I'll be handling P2 & P3 and guess which session I'm in?
ALL.....I'm in d afternoon session on Mon,Tue & Thur, morning session on Wed and I'm 'floating' on Fri. Now how interesting can that get??
Oh well at least I'm not far from home....the school's just a 10 minute walk from home. Which also means I hv students stayin in my neighbourhood and even in the same block as me! *sigh*
I think I shud be optimistic about this....my school is nearby so I save on transport money and the CTs were nice and friendly and I get to experience wat its like to be in the different sessions in one practicum session. Not too bad...I'll just take it as another learning experience.
One thing to look forward to....July's bonus!!!Not such a big amount but a bonus is still a bonus! =)

2006-06-18T00:18:00.000+08:00

Saturday Girls Day Out

I had another karaoke session with CT, Zura & our new fren, Ana(muka dia ada iras2 Siti Nordiana...tapi dia tak agree!). CT & Ana arrived at Apollo Centre before Zura & me. We were late coz we went to have our very late lunch at Far East Plaza. I was hungry lah! Cannot sing if I nvr eat!Like CT always say...."Nura, kau sentiasa lapar.Bila yang kau tak lapar pon aku tak tahu!" So the session was supposed to start at 6.30pm but Zura and me arrived only at about 7.15pm. Nasib baik Kak CT Sayang kita tak buat muka "terpele'ot". Sorry ya Kak CT, adik Nura lapar lah tadi!hehee... So we sang song after song, and of coz we didn't forget our compulsory song, "Akan Ku Tunggu" by Candy. This is a must sing especially if you karaoke with an all girl group. Rambut satu-satu leh jadi serabai kalau nyanyi lagu ni. Apa tak...kita nyanyi sambil head banging!
We left Apollo Centre at 9.30 pm and went off to Bugis Junction Starbucks to meet my other 4 guy frens(no!it was not so dat we each had a boy partner.it was to reunite ex-schmates). We got to catch the live screening of Portugal VS Iran there. Kecoh abis tempat tu! Finally CT, Zura & me went home in a cab we shared(Ana had her bf pick her up). Susah betul nak dapat cab, padahal dah kul 11.30 mlm, midnite charge dah start. We finally got one after walking some distance past Arab St.(acherly kita potong jalan org yg tgh tunggu cab pat depan.nak hidup beb!) Well I had fun again wif my lovely Jenz(go to my fotopgs if u wanna know wat I mean) and our new fren, Ana. Another girls session is sure to come!Rite CT, my darling?

2006-06-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

Tagged by Zura I was.....

3 SCHOOLS I WENT TO
1. Chong Boon Primary School (found my best fren,Norafizah Ariffin, during my study here. Oh & it's her b'day today!Happy B'day darlz!)
2. Presbyterian High School (my kentalan days where I knew nothing abt make
up or even looking good)
3. Outram Institute (where I realised my true potential as a performer)

3 THINGS IN MY PURSE/BACKPACK
1. My long wallet (yang dah hilang bau leather dia*hint hint*)
2. My Mitsubishi handphone (yg dah banyak scratches & tiada bluetooth*another hint hint*)
3. My Ipod Mini

3 THINGS I DO WHEN I AM STRESS
1. Cry
2. Shout
3. Talk to my rabbits

3 PLACES I GO ON A DAILY BASIS
1. My Bathing,Peeing & Shitting Zone
2. My Sleeping Zone
3. Anywhere outta d house

3 FAVOURITE FRUITS
1. Lychee
2. Mango
3. Durians

3 NAMES I GO BY
1. Nora
2. Nura
3. Fizah

3 OF MY FAVOURITE FOOD
1. Kway Teow noodles cooked in anyway
2. Italian Food
3. Satay
(This makes me hungry just thinking abt them!Supper anyone?)

3 THINGS I'M WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. Black Topshop Tee
2. Black Fila Berms
3. New CK Specs

WHO IS IN THE HOUSE WITH ME?
My Dad,my mum, my younger bro & my 3 rabbits.

WHO AM I THINKING OF RIGHT NOW?
I'd rather keep dat a secret....

WHO DID I LAST TALK ON THE PHONE WITH?
Reza

WHO DID I SIT WITH DURING MY 5TH PERIOD IN CLASS?
Huh?What 5th period?What class?

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON I TOLD THAT I LOVED?
My best fren, Norafizah.

WHO DO I WISH I AM WITH RIGHT NOW?
Errr....One of d World Cup Football Players esp yg dari Brazil....So all my World Cup crazed guy frens can finally give me d attention they suddenly stop giving me.....hehee....

WHO GETS ON MY NERVES MOST IN SCHOOL?
Again?What school?

WHERE IS MY PHONE?
Beside My Laptop

WHERE DO I SLEEP?
Usually on my bed...sumtimes in d vehicles I'm travelling in...hehee...

WHERE IS THE PLACE I TOOK A RIDE TO?
Ermm....I stayed home today.

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING I ATE?
3 chicken nuggets & 3 Japanese Crispy Chicken with lemon juice (Now I'm officially hungry again!)

WHAT COLOUR SHIRT AM I WEARING?
Black

WHAT IS THE CLOSEST ITEM TO ME THAT IS BLUE?
My advance theory of driving book

WHAT DO I LIKE MOST BOUT SCHOOL?
Food,glorious food!

WHAT IS MY FAVOURITE COLOUR?
Blue & Purple (of all shades)

WHAT DO I WEAR MOST OFTEN JEANS/SHORTS?
Jeans

WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE I WATCHED?
The Omen

WHEN DID I START SCHOOL?
1988

WHEN DID I LAST GO THE MALL?
Yesterday.I went to Bugis Junction(Seiyu)

WHEN DID I LAST BURN SOMETHING?
Yesterday(cigarette counts rite?)

3 people to do this 1. CT 2. Suliana 3. Nora

2006-06-11T00:53:00.000+08:00

A Brief Update for d past week....

Mon, 5th June - Went out riding late nite and hung out at Yishun Dam till 5 am....

Tues, 6th June - Hung out wif CT and Su at Starbucks California Fitness Orchard for hours....

Wed, 7th June - Went shopping at Bugis & Raffles City Shopping Centre, bought myself a pair of Levi's Red Tab jeans at a discount of $50(One of d perks of being a Club Levi's member)

Thur, 8th June - Took my BTT and passed it then went to shop for a new pair of shoes. Finally found them at Novo, after which I met CT & was later joined by Suhaimi. We hung out at BK Borders from 4pm till 10.30pm gossiping and learning magic tricks from each other...hehee.....dah takde keje....Then I went riding again later at nite,hung out at Bilal Yishun till ard 5 am....

Fri, 9th June - Met CT and Zura ard 3.30pm to go to Sentosa for a picnic....y 3.30pm?Coz CT had to work. Y the 3 of us only? Coz Su, Suliana & her daughter had other commitments. It was fun though. We planned to take d Luge after the picnic but it was closed by the time we finished showering. Then we had dinner at McDonald's,Harboufront Centre.

Sat, 10th June - Went shopping wif my fren and got myself a new pair of specs. I caught 'The Omen' at GV Plaza Singapura,it was an okay movie. Not recommended for d faint hearted. Then had dinner at Swensen's...

So today I shall stay at home and be a good girl, help mummy with all the house chores....hehee....like real only....

2006-05-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

I am afterall human....

I know my previous blogs have sounded positive and made me seem like a happy person. I shall not deny it...I am actually breaking inside. But I know, no matter how hard a situation I am facing, there are others who are facing much worst. So I have been told of my flaws,painfully, but I have been told. And I am thankful to those who did so and also I apologise for all d pain I have caused to all of u. Forgive me for all my trespasses. I shall be on my guard now so as to try not to hurt you anymore. I do not wanna deny that things will not be same between us but I only hope for the best in the future.
And it doesn't help that my past is still haunting me. In fact, you know who you are, hurt me with that personal msg u displayed purposely for me to see. U know who you are, I hope you are satisfied. You have managed to make me tear over n over again. I do not bear any grudges but I wanna apologise to you if I had in any way hurt you too. All I hope for you now is happiness and do stop all the lies and be daring enough to always be honest and truthful to the ones you love and the ones who love you.
However, on the bright side, I am thankful and blessed to have some friends who are still there for me. You guys n gals are the reason I am still able to smile and move on with my life. I shall not mention names as you may want to remain anonymous.In fact I was given a very pleasant surprise today. Thanks my fren for making me smile....the potrait of me is beautifully done...

D original pic

D hand-drawn potrait

2006-05-28T23:59:00.001+08:00

CT,Zura & Su....u made my Sunday perfect....

I have never had such a wonderful Sunday. Met up wif my gerlfren, CT and her fren who also happens to be a fren of another fren and an ex-bf, Zura(SG is such a small place!). Initially we were suppose to go to East Coast but sumhow we had a change of plans. We had our dinner first at Far East Plaza. Then they accompanied me to buy a top I've been aiming for a long time. It was a bit over my budget but I decided to buy it coz it looked sooo nice and the girls were like"Belilah...nanti lain kali datang dah takde kau menyesal". Such good salesgirls they can be...hehee...but ya no regrets the top IS nice and worth the money. Then we had to find a place to chill out. Zura suggested Balcony at Heeren. It's got a nice atmosphere coz it has a very cozy environment for friends to just chill out and talk. We were then joined by Suhaila(Su) who turn out to b a fren of one of the waiters there. If we'd had known, we would have waited for her to come first before ordering our drinks...bole dapat air free...hahaaa....nilah aku dahi jendol chap free....
So as normal we shared stories and experiences...ok fine fine...we were gossiping....then we saw a group of 'mat saleh' filming there. Surprisingly we were approached by them to be included in their filming. They were doing a tourism documentary and the film would be aired in Germany. U shud have seen d looks on each of our faces....muka terkejut berok campur senyuman kambing....maklumlah terfikir pasal mat mat German yg akan melihat muka kita nanti...hehee....So we were filmed not once but twice coz the batt went flat halfway d first time....It was hard okay to act as normal wen not only d camera was focusing on us but also d other patrons of Balcony. Tapi best gak skali skali feeling mcm film star...kwang kwang kwang....
We left Balcony around 11pm coz Zura n Su had to work in the morning. Skali while I was just telling myself wat a wonderful Sunday it had been, I was met with another pleasant surprise. D eagled-eyed Zura saw Shenny Andrea...doesn't ring a bell? Fans of d drama DIA....u shud know....we met Fifi,one of the strong and wicked characters in DIA(Fifi itu MONSTER!hahaa). And she is sooo beautiful even with minimal make-up(A very beautiful "monster" indeed). Us being fanatics of DIA took the opportunity of taking pics wif her.So girls I had fun and yes we will have more outings to come....
Pics are coutesy of CT's N70...hehee.....free advertisement jap...

2006-05-25T00:59:00.000+08:00

Exhausted.....

I've been kept busy d whole Wednesday and Thursday....
On wednesday I met my NIE ladies at YCK MRT.....Afah,Atie & Ayu were there first....turns out they spontaneously went to sign up for their driving licence w/o me of coz....Nurul was late....
then we headed to have our brunch at Sakura after which we then went window shoppin....as the term says it....window shoppin....so nobody bought anything....
then we chilled at Coffee Bean...and we spilled the beans....errr I mean we spilled out the latest updates in our lives....We then went separated ways.....Afah & Atie to tuition, Ayu to tarian, Nurul to meet her beloved Fir and me to get ready to party....
Gotham Penthouse was on d menu that nite.....and we partied and danced till we couldn't dance no more....I was suppose to stay d nite at my fren's place but we only got back early d next morning wen d sun was shining....ya dat was how much fun we had....wat a stress reliever....
So on Thursday I had to b at my practicum school at about 1.45pm and I was still lacking of sleep by the time I got back home. I managed to catch a few winks though I was still groggy wen i got ready for the meeting. My practicum school is huge...damn huge....u hv to climb 7 flights of stairs to get to the P6 classes...looks like the weight losing season is about to start wen school reopens....after dat I hung out at Afah's place to girl talk wif a fren....So now wif my eyes barely open....I am goin to zzzzzz.......

2006-05-22T13:37:00.000+08:00

I got this from K-sha's friendster bulletin...

Which month does your birthday falls on?

January- Gothic
February- Preppy
March- Horny
April- adorable
May- Stupid
June- Kinky
July- Popular
August- CraZy
September- Beautiful
October- Pretty
November- Nerdy
December- Kissable

What day is ur birthday?

1- Beauty Queen
2- princess
3- Ninja
4- Actor/Actress
5- Power-Ranger
6- Gay
7- model
8- Crack-Trash
9- Dog
10- Candy Cane
11- Caution Freak
12- Angel
13- Irish Girl
14- Sex Maniac
15- Punk
16- Alcoholic
17- Teacher's Pet
18- Stoner
19- Pirate
20- Fairy
21- sexy beast
22- Surfer
23- Piece of Pizza
24- Hottie
25- Druggie
26- Drama Queen
27- Surgeon
28- Poser
29- Rockstar
30- Hooker
31- Care Bear

What color is your hair?

blonde=Who's sexually frustrated
brown=Who's great in bed
dirty blonde=Who is greatly frustrated
black=Who needs a life
red=Who loves to ride emus
pink=who loves to make out.

So I am a beautiful poser who's great in bed!Not such a bad combi than a horny care bear who's sexually frustrated....Yes peeps this is how bored I am.....

2006-05-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

Da Vinci Code

Abt a yr ago sumone inspired me to read this book. I bought it and finished reading it in one day,such was d addiction. I finally got to see d much anticipated movie and as I had expected the movie was as mind-boggling as the book. I am a satisfied Dan Brown fan. Thanks CT for accompanying me to the movie.

2006-05-16T13:10:00.000+08:00

Suliana's Chalet

I didn't actually expect to enjoy myself at this chalet coz it's really been a loooong time since I hung out with the "General" teachers, especially Su, Kai & Faizal. Damn we use to be the dynamic 4. Apa ke tidak mana kita pegi confem kecoh dgn tebiat tu dua² jejaka "idaman". I tot it was gonna b awkward coz there were gonna b sum other "General" teachers there.But it turn out to be a great chalet. I hitched a ride from Kai at Tampines to get to Aloha resorts. Sampai aje, aku perasan, si budak² pompuan yg lain mcm ada yg tak kena. Lerrr.....diaorg ingatkan aku ni matair Kai. WTF???Dat aside....chalet dia besar(4 bedroom) and also sebelah swimming pool tapikan mcm mana aku nak swim kalau aku tak tau swim?Yes peeps I can't swim and if u read one of my prev blog, I can't cycle either. Lagipun bikini aku tertinggal pat rumah(ahaks...mcm betul je aku nak pakai bikni pat chalet!).
So anyway,the girls prepared d food (dat ikan pari bakarnye rasa is still unforgettable!) and the guys bbq-ed the food(acherly d girls pun tolong bbq, Su ajer mcm mem dok tepi jaga anak).Takpe Su aku faham ko tak pandai bbq(pasal kaulah fishball hangus, hitam legam dan rangup!) We had story telling sessions with Su, the nenek selampit, pertunjukkan silap mata oleh Jabbar The Great then singing sessions with Faizal n Sufian, 2 seniman jalanan. We even had a b'day surprise for poster girl, Dayana. Overall chalet tu dah macam sarkes!
But I had fun and hope we do this again ah Su my laling!

2006-05-10T18:57:00.000+08:00

Haircut...

After much consideration, I decided to do something with my hair. Afterall my curly hair roots were already about 2 inches long and I am tired of having to iron it out each time before going out. And I remember my supervisor for practicum saying I need to to do something about my hair.So I had my hair rebonded again today. Not only dat, I also had abt 4 inches cut out and my hair recoloured. Now after 5 n 1/2 hrs of sitting in d hairdresser's chair, tolerating d tugging n pulling to make my hair slick straight, the sharp pain I got when the hair dye touched my scalp and the heat from the ironer against my scalp, my hair is now straighter, shorter and my blonde highlights are gone. The total bill for d day = $165. Good price rite? Considering my hair is long and it was rebonded and dyed. Oh well I am afterall a regular at that salon so if the auntie had not given me a good price she knew she would loose my loyalty. So I took pics of my new hair and here me w/o make up with my new hair.....not much of a diference though....

2006-05-08T14:41:00.000+08:00

Girls Day Out

Been filling up my free time meeting up with my gfs, yesterday being one of them. Met up with Shikin n Rozi to catch a movie initially. But silly me acherly it's really dumb of me lah...did the wrong booking. Must b coz I got too much on my mind! I was suppose to book 3 movie tics at 1.50pm for Sun, and b'coz i did d booking on Sat, I did not change d date thus causing my booking to be made for Sat's session instead. Since GV do not allow any exchanges....I saw $29.50 fly away just like that. And of coz that really made me cuss up and down at myself. I remember saying "SHIT SHIT SHIT LAH!!" to the girl at d ticket counter. Of she couldn't possibly reply "Ya, u'r shit lah not mine" coz if she did, I'll make sure her ass is fired! She just smiled sweetly and say, "But u can still purchase another movie ticket if u really want to watch d movie." WTF!!!!!!
Oh well, though d day started really badly and I had to deal with d embarassment of tellin my 2 frens that there was not goin to b any movie, the rest of d day went pretty fine. We decided to move off to Orchard(we were at GV Marina) by taking d shuttle bus from Marina Square. So d 3 of us were sceptical abt gettin on d bus coz no one was on it, neither was d bus driver. We waited till some pple got on it and so did we. We were all smiles to get a free ride to Orchard(typical Singaporeans!haha) skali d bus went around Marina Square and ended up at at d same spot that we boarded it. From d back of d bus I could see question marks popping up on the other passengers head. Turns out d bus picked up some more passengers then finally brought us to Orchard Rd.
The rest of the day was full of laughter, bitching and fun. We were suppose to be shopping but none of us ended up buying anything. Then Shikin had this idea of taking photo stickers(we were at Annex,Heeren). The problem with these photo booths is that they r in Japanese so we couldn't understand a single thing that we were pressing and we ended up with many candid shots, shouting and giggling in the booth. So I present u the finished product...

2006-05-01T13:05:00.000+08:00

IT

IT is everywhere. IT is in my family, my friends and even my loves. What is IT? IT is the lying and cheating that occurs between couples that's usually linked to infidelity. IT sickens me. I do not understand why one must resort to IT when one have vowed never to even come close to IT. IT destroys the precious TRUST. IT destroys the bonds one have with the other. I've cried and suffered because of IT. I have to admit I am guilty of IT. Yes I am contradicting myself. However it takes courage for one to admit of doing IT. IT happened a long time ago and as soon as IT happened, I would admit to the other half of mine that I did IT. After I which I suffer the effects of IT.
I am sad now that IT is around me again. I am crying because I am seeing IT destroying the joy and happiness that I have around me. It destroyed the love and trust that I had for those around me be it my friends or families. IT is dangerously becoming a norm in life. IT has made me put off my plans of union with the other half in the future. IT may even destroy my family. I HATE IT! Pls God make IT go away....pls....perish it....pls...

2006-04-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

WHY?

Why couldn't you just understand that all I want is the truth?Why can't u understand that all I want is for you to stop lying to me?Why is is so hard for u to just tell me the truth? If u think telling the truth will make me angry in the past,how sure are u that that will happen when u haven't even tried it NOW?
I'm just sad that we have to go through all these. Maybe it is really retribution for all the lies that I told u before. Whatever it is, I shall just be strong and face it. Thank you granting me the great memories. I shall never forget your deeds. Goodbye my dear fren...

2006-04-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

Another B'day Mission Accomplished....

We had an advance b'day celebration for another April b'day baby today,Nurul.Tricked her into believing we were going for makan to celebrate the end of exams. Poor girl had to wait hours for the makan to begin. So when she finally realise there was a b'day cake on d table, she screamed!It's such an interesting feeling to see what surprises do to people.
So we ate the food,proudly sponsored by the Go Go Girls Catering Services(thanks Khaiyisha,Syahida,Rasyidah & Khatijah)
Then we presented the b'day presents with a twist. We gave Nurul 21 b'day prezzie BUT she had to earn it by doin 7 forfeits. Each forfeit done earns 3 prezzies. Nurul was made to sing while being spun, do a pole dance, go on d flyingfox(kite pon kena buat butt dance...bertuahnya Go Go Girls!tapi seksi abis,especially bontot kak Atie) , try imitate a bird(Afah yg jadi mating partnernye,sungguh lucu), push ayu n me from one point to another ( tapi kita pon kena push dia jugak, tapi kite tak dpt prezzie :( ), race kak Atie at an obstacle course(alaa...budak² keciknye version) n finally climb ropes.....
She finally got all her prezzies....and at the end of d day we were all sweaty,sticky,smelly but shared loads of laughter....

Nurul, hope u had a great advance b'day surprise, may Allah grant u u'r prayers n lastly HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!!!

2006-04-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

Finally....I am exam-free for now....

After only 2 n 1/2 hrs of sleep since yest,mugs of coffee, tons of notes that never quite got into my head and eyes that are now incomparable to that of a goldfish's eyes....ok I am exaggerating...I declare myself exam-free!!!wohoooo!!!

NO school, no lectures, no tutorial all d way till June 26!Erm...now all I have to do is think about what I wanna during this break...hmmm.....suggestions anyone?

2006-04-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

It was but only a dream....

Yesterday i woke up smiling. No....i did not get "IT' yesterday...for god's sake i dun have a bf to start with....but well...hmmm....
Anyway, it was a splendid dream that gave me a smile on my face. And NO it was not a wet dream...aku tak tau camne pompuan wet dream,sumpah aku tak tahu!
I dreamt tat I was driving and riding a motorbike....syok abis!!

To begin with I dunno what or whose car i was driving. In the dream I was driving super smooth but sumhow I had a problem with the brake coz my feet just couldn't find it...part ni aku rasa inspired by Ayu yg tak tau camne nak brake kereta...sumhow I finally found d brake n could stop the car...sama lagi lah Ayu. All this while I had Rendra as my passenger...ntah kenapa si Rendra tak drive pulak...orang yg dah dapat driving licence since 2003....if u still dunno I still do not have a driving licence and I have never drove a car...at most I have only learnt how to start the engine of a Hyundai Accent.....

So after I manage to stop the car, tukar pulak lah...naik motor lak...tu takpe...Rendra jadi akunye pillion....u see in reality...I do not have a Class 2B/2A/2 licence.....and another thing u must know I do not...errr....I do not know how to ride a....ok ok....I admit it!I do not know how to ride a bicycle. Yes I, Nurafizah who is actually turning 23 this year do not know how to ride a bicycle....apa ketawa?!Aku ada kekurangan apa...korang tahu rollerblade tak?Kalau tau bagus...nanti kita gi blading pat East Coast...kita challenge budak-budak 2 roda tu dgn 8 roda kita....hmph!

Anyway I was on happy pills riding the bike(dia mcm moto 125Z gitu ah),with Rendra at the back on the way to Orchard Rd(this I know coz I told Rendra I wasn't sure about the route to Orchard Rd). Skali halfway, I was riding under a block of flats(it started to get nonsensical here) and I was blocked by this basket of durians...and then there were some kids around there....I was screaming at a kid to move the basket and this kid had placed his handphone which then rang and disappeared under the durians....so I got off the bike trying to move the basket while the kid was bugging me abt his handphone and me causing scratches on it....I got physical and here is where it became even stupid...the kid turned into marshmellows...haha....yes white squishy marshmellow that I so love to eat....so d dream ended there....
Stupid ending but still the ecstatic feeling of being able to ride a bike...no no...motorcycle to be precise...is enough to make me wake up with a smile. :)

You see...I love being on a motorcycle and since I can't cycle to begin with, I have to make do with being the pillion. I've been on road bikes, motor kap-chai but my fav is of course sportsbike(Nurafizah hearts R1). So ya the dream has motivated me to sign up for my driving licence next Thurs...insyallah....and sumone has promised to teach me to ride a bicycle again(the first time failed when I finally manage to cycle but banged straight into a washing machine that was dumped under the void deck....abeh orang tu tak ajar camne nak belok?)

Ok so I think I better get back to revision now...nak motivate Afah untuk blajar...blajar Fah...blajar....jgn jadi mcm aku org suruh blajar aku blog...eh btw muka ko masih pat hp aku ah....ko jadi akunye lesbian partner aight!haha...

2006-04-19T15:44:00.000+08:00

I Have Style....without the "l" & "e"

My lower right eyelid is in pain...which makes me feel even lazier to study for d exams...
This sty is a recurrance...and it is damn red n irritatingly itchy...I feel like my already chubby cheek is carrying a heavy burden....d swelling was really bad yesterday....so I went to d doc today....got my antibiotics n dat same old cream....$22 poorer...sigh....

Oh well demi Nani & Mukhlis akan ku terus berjuang!

2006-04-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

Pre-Exams Stress Reliever - Ayu's B'day Surprise!!

Now where do I start....ok abt a wk before d exams now n we had a pre b'day celebration for Ayu like no other. D day started with Afah's wake up call for an umbrella...So I went to her house wif 2 umbrellas to d rescue n we went shopping for d ingredients for Ayu's b'day celebration. Left d b'day cake at Afah's house n I then rushed home to hv d breakfast Mama n Ayah bought for me....then got ready for Ayu's b'day....then went back to Afah's house again....
Due to change of venue of celebration, I had to go back home again to change jeans n take my camera....berpeluh abis aku!

And so I met ayu under my blk,escorted her to Afah's place and then purposely asked her to open d closed door and SURPRISE!!!
I know Ayu was super shocked n surprised...hehee....
So we sang b day song,cut d cake n Ayu opened d pressies...

Then we kidnap Ayu, blindfolded her and brought her to SNOW CITY!Loads of snow,fun,screaming n laughter(I had a bruise on my butt though thanks to d snow humps).

And we headed to Mcdonald's before Ayu had to go for tarian practise and all of us went our separate ways....
Lovely b'day though Ayu did say she "BENCI" us sumtime during d celebration....tapi aku tau Ayu bedek!

P/S: More pics have been uploaded at my fotopgs...sila lah ye...

2006-04-10T00:49:00.000+08:00

Moving away from my lovelife....

I shall not blog about my lovelife for now...it is super complicated as it already is...so i shall focus d entries on d other parts of my life....
But I would like to thank Afah, Ayu, Atie n Nurul for lending me u'r listening ears. Even though u hv u'r own probs, u were willing to listen and gave me u'r sincerest advice. I love u babes!
Anyway, I had a panic attack for a while, wen I was trying to do my assignment today...my pc was infected with a worm( worm_brontok)...stupid damn worm came from an email(which i tot was from my fren)...and it spread into my thumbdrive which i later used on my laptop and thus infected my laptop!So my pc,thumbdrive n laptop was infected and i had no antivirus protection!!d online virus scan could not delete it....
so i had to go buy an antivirus software....and thank god...it manage to get rid of d worm!
so d lesson learn today is to always hv an antivirus installed....

2006-04-07T15:14:00.000+08:00

Closure....

I do realise the previous entries have been very very much filled wif hate and anger. And also along with all d hate n anger, was name-calling and criticising. It was wrong to do dat but I have to admit dat it was beyond ctrl. I was already angry and frustrated wif my ex-bf abt sum other things/lies which he did/told. Thus d friendster msg that revealed even more lies that he had told me was like "fuel added to the fire" in me...
I did not mean to lash out an attack on D****. Yes i do regret it. And I hv contacted & spoken to D**** dat wednesday itself and apologise to her for my rash act.We r now on good terms as I see it.
However, I shall not delete d entries regarding this matter as this blog serves to show d UPs N DOWNs of my life. And I wish to stick by my choice of just disguising d names of d parties involved.
T*** I hope it is now clear to u dat it was NVR in my intention to 'jatuhkan maruah' ur bestfren D****.It was just an entry I wrote in d midst of my anger, frustration and confusion. I bear no grudges against u or ur best fren b'coz the root of dis prob is actually my ex-bf. Thus I hope this entry of apology will b a closure to this matter. I apologise if my entries in any way hv caused any of u readers emotional harm, especially to D**** & T***. :)

2006-04-05T03:41:00.000+08:00

I still can't sleep....

Nope my eyes refuse to shut...my brain refuses to stop thinking....
So I shall blog....
Y is it dat wen one party is ready to play his/her part in d relationship...d other party always spoils it?
Y is it dat wen u tink everything will be okay...it just always seem to turn out d other way round?
Y is it dat wen I am attached...all these things happen?
Y oh y can't I just find dat one guy...dat one to spend d rest of my life with?
I know d perfect guy for me does not n will nvr exist...
I dun expect a lot....just average looks....and he must b taller....
What I expect most is sumone who will b honest wif me, who knows how to make me smile, who will accept and LOVE me for my handicaps and who will respect me n my decisions...as i would to him.
Is dat too much to ask for?
I dun tink so...coz I know I'm not dat perfect...n for dat I tank God...coz if I was perfect...I wouldn't b who I m today....I'll be one selfish,arrogant,thoughtless b****....
So for now i need a break....as suggested by a fren....I SHALL PLAY D FIELD BUT NOT GET TACKLED....

2006-04-05T02:46:00.000+08:00

Lembaran Cinta Pudar

"Sayang...surat ini ku tulis dikejauhan malam...
Ketika hujan gerimis...
Biarpun bercinta dengan mu sungguh indah...
Namun memutuskannya aku terluka...
Tapi biarlah kekecewaan hari ini
Dari nanti kehilangan harga diri
Aku telah tiba dipenghujung kesabaran
Sebelum lebih menderita
Biarlah aku yang memberikan keputusan..."

Noktah dibaris akhir...
Ku redha keputusan suratan takdir
Telah lama menunggu
Masa yang berharga sesia berlalu
Kau memberi harapan yang
Palsu...

( korus )
Oh... oh...
Kerana tiada
Pendirian yang nyata
Kututupi lembaran
Cinta pudar...

Tiada ketelusan
Tiada keberanian
Lama menanti
Jawapan pasti
Terkulai kini
Mimpi... Mimpi...

( solo & ulang korus 2X)

Dengan lembaran ini
Akan tiada lagi
Yang asyik menghitung hari dalam mimpi
Oh... mimpi...

"Selesai surat ini kau tatapi...
Aku harap kau mengerti...
Setelah ini antara kita
Akan tiada pertemuan lagi..."

aku nak dgr lagu ni smp aku tido....

2006-04-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

And to continue from d previous blog...

Eh D**** ko buat kelakar apa?Ko ingat aku ni so-chai ko?KO panggil R***** bastard pastu ko suruh aku tolong ko lak mintak duit....
pastu ko suruh aku tolong ko as a fren lagi...KO SAPA?!nama bapak ko pon aku tak tau lah!!!
KO bestfren aku kapa?best fren aku pon takde suruh aku pi carik org mintak hutang lah BODOH!
dah lah english ko bertrabor...nasib baik kepala otak aku pandai...leh faham apa ko type...
aku tak peduli apa yg org nak pikir lepas baca ni blog...
aku amat marah...amat sedih..amat kecewa...amatlah segala yg negatif....
aku takle tido mlm ni...so aku blog...dan akan aku blog apa yg aku boleh sampai aku tertido....
yes i am super super super emotional now...even Ice Age 2 can't make me smile anymore!
blardeeee hell!!!

2006-04-05T00:44:00.000+08:00

I AM SORRY I HAD TO BREAK MY PROMISE NOT TO CRY TONITE MY FREN....

but look wat i i receive from my frienster msg today....
another truth i've been kept from my bf...
WHY?WHY?WHY?????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Nura,

Im D**** (h***** gal ) sorry la if i disturb u ya...
Just need to clarific wit u abt ur bf..... Dier ni my
best friend ex (T***) ok la i understand u guys start
to patch again rite (after he break wit my friend).
but e bottom line , dier pinjam my friend duit $650
to buy handphone n we trust him tat he would stay
sinerely wit friend.... tapi he one of e bastard siak.
unluckily..... my guy noe u (classmate rite)
thanks god n he help us to trace ur bf..... I hope
u can help me by asking him e money or pass me
e phone.... Recently i called him n ask abt money
n he inform me tat by tis 12 april 06 he will pay
up... Just help me as a friend ya..... do drop me e
email ...

Thanks
D****

my dear bf...u said T*** was just a friend...well i guess u lied AGAIN.......
N u said d money was from u'r pay...so u lied AGAIN N AGAIN....
tak cukup ke dgn apa yg u dah bohong selama ni....aku penat!!!!!!
I HATE U!I REALLY HATE U NOW!
MY HEART IS NOW SHREDED, TORN, TATTERED, BLASTED, SMASHED....I DUNNO WAT ELSE TO TYPE....
GOD PLS GIVE ME D STRENGTH TO GO THRU DIS AGAIN....I DUN DESERVE DIS...I KNOW I DUN!

2006-04-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

ICE AGE 2

Caught Ice Age 2 just now....
can't stop laughing in d theatre...
it was not just any theatre...
it's d NEW movie theatre at The Cathay...
d interior is soooo cool...
it's like walking into a theatre for a play...coz d screen is on a stage....
superb surround system...
overall....dat will be d movie theatre i shall frequent in d near future...
happy day today...dun wanna think abt d sad parts :)

2006-04-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

Dissapointed, Depressed, Down....
Let me have my space.....

2006-03-31T22:26:00.000+08:00

PESTA PESTA PESTA....

I am still laughing while typing this...
Was doing my Sastera assignment while watching tv....changed the channel to Suria and the show "Pesta Pesta Pesta" was on.....I've already watched this wen it aired live...but I watched it again coz I just needed some noise in the background to do my work...
The show was about giving ourageous awards to the local Malayscene stars but my fav award was the "Fan Paling Heboh". This fan was to shout as loud and as creative as possible. There was this makcik who wore a tudung. Yes,dat's her pic. She was selected as one of the finalist for that particular award....and OMG...she shouted,screamed,yelled( i dunno which one to use) like she almost got the greatest fright in her life with her face looking like she was in pain...muka mcm tgh tahan taik siol!Tak Bole Angzzzz.....
I started laughing the moment I saw this fat makcik shout/scream/yell or watever it is she did....goodness even the show's hosts, Rilla Melati couldn't stop herself from laughing wen she heard d makcik...
She was shaking her ass like nobody's biz on stage....I was worried that she would get a heart attack from all that shaking!
SCARY !Still d show is a fresh approach to make the local tv scene more interesting.
Ok back to sastera....

2006-03-29T21:25:00.000+08:00

Busy...busy...busy...week!!

It has been a very busy and hectic week for me this week.It's mid week and I already feel tired. I have soooo many things to be done...yet sumhow...it's so hard for me to get it done...as if there's a magnet or a force pulling me away from my school work. I guess I need to work on d discipline part...
Rite now I have yet to study for Dr Abbas's test tomorow...d good thing is I was given d qns...the bad thing is...I feel really tired and I dun feel like memorising or even reading d notes he gave...banyak sgt Vitamin M(malas)!
I also have to reread d debate points for tomorow.....haizz....
Furthermore, there is the sastera assignment to be completed...I am aiming for a 20 pg essay...which makes me feel even more tired....
So rite now I am feeling lethargic....I just got back from meeting my bf...my eyes are telling me to go to sleep but it's only 9.20pm!!
Ok I think i'm gonna try to study.....

2006-03-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

AL-FATIHAH FOR ARAFAH'S, LATE SON....

I was awaken by Arafah's call ard 5.30 dis morn...my dear fren was sobbing uncontrollably.....wen she relayed the news of her son's passing away....
Inna lillahi wa inna lillahi raji'un
I really didn't know wat to say(still blur from d dream i was in)...in fact I can't recall wat I asked her....
I couldn't go back to bed aft Afah hung up....slowly d news sank in and I wanted so much to say sumthing to console Afah...but I guess it's better to let her calm down first....
I knew sumthing had to b done....but I just dunno wat....suddenly my fon vibrated again(yes I was awaken by d vibration....I'm a light sleeper u c)...
Kak Ti mass-sms...made me call her n tell her dat I couldn't go back to sleep...so did she!!
Aft Kak Ti...I called Nurul....she too couldn't sleep aft d news....talk to her for a while den I went online....
I wanted to blog but aft 3 lines...I deleted everything....coz I just couldn't and didn't know how to continue d blog...
Aft visiting Afah wif d NIE girls, I felt it's now appropriate to blog....
ARAFAH...dis blog is for u and arwah Iqbal....
I hope u look at it optimistically.....Iqbal, u'r darling son is now in Allah's embrace, no more tubes, no more medication and especially NO MORE...... PAIN....in a way, all d sufferings he went thru and d emotional sufferings u went thru for him has come to a closure....u'r darling Iqbal will b waiting for u at Allah's heavenly gates and one day he will be u'r saviour....just like how hard u tried to save him....
Be strong for u'r other darling, Ikhsan...
Lastly.....
To d Muslims reading this let us say Al-Fatihah for Arafah's late son, Iqbal Bin Muhammad Zulkiflie....

2006-03-21T23:33:00.000+08:00

D PROBLEM WITH PMS.....
Somehow I nvr tot PMS would affect me badly....
I was suppose to met my bf after classes today....
So i really dressed up and even wore my fav perfume....
My class was suppose to end at 4.30pm...I received his sms at ard 3pm saying he was eating his "breakfast"...after his shooting session.
Smsed back and tld him to meet me at d interchange at 5pm....he replied OK...
Class ended and I called him on the way to d interchange....
Turns out he just woke up from his slumber.....
Thanks to PMS...i became emotional, started to estuate....and decided not to meet him if he isn't at d interchange by d time I arrive....
As expected he wasn't there...so in my anger...I left to study wif my NIE gerls.....
D anger got really bad wen eh called me later and tried to reason wif me.So bad dat, wen confronted by my frens if I was okay after saying I was very angry at him.....my tears flowed....tried my best not to burst out....
Knowing d NIE gerls...their jokes and laughter can help anyone set aside/cover up their emotions....so i did...
My bf appeared later sumwhere near my house wen I was on my way home....
I ignored him...
Later wen Afah talked to me on MSN....she made me realise I might be havin PMS....which i so agree and so I apologise to my dear bf...(Tanks a lot Afah!)
So my dear, wen u read dis....I'm sorry for being so emotional...pls do take note of the 3rd wk of the mth....I COULD B PMS-ing!

2006-03-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

Today, I woke up to Afah's msg abt Khatijah's bro's, Hakim, b'day which totally slipped off my mind...
Since Afah was goin wif hubby & son....I had to find sumone else to go wif coz I didn't know how to get there.
So I went there wif Nurul(too bad Ayu can't make it,it'd had been her n Nurul if not)....met the rest under Khatijah's void deck....went up once Afah arrive wif hubby & son....
As usual....with Syahida n Rasyidah around things got really kecoh-rable.
I have to compliment Khatijah's parents dishes...kuah soto dier POWER tapi pada aku kuah satay n daging satay dier LAGI POWER!I wonder y Khatijah is so skinny though....
So we took pics wif d b'day boy....

Then Afah, Hubby & son had to leave....together wif Kak Atie n Hafiz....
Nurul left wif Khaiyisha...both to meet their bfs....
So Khatijah, Syahida, Rashidah & me played.....THE GAME OF LIFE.....my very first time playing!I won d the second round!!
After maghrib, we left for Causeway Point, went shopping a bit den I left for hm...
My bf...well...he was working...sigh....

2006-03-17T12:55:00.000+08:00

Rite now I have 7 pimples on my face....it is super red and I will nvr leave d house without any concealer on my face....y is dis happening?
Coz I am super stressed up.....2 assignments due next wk and both and incomplete.....So I'm kinda taking a break from all d thinking abt sastera and linguistics while writing dis....
I just finished reading Ayu's blog and my heart goes out to her coz I know how she feels...in fact wen I wrote my tag to her abt my ex-bf n me...my eyes started to water....dats how much pain I'm holding in me even up till now.....But Ayu my dear fren...u hv to let go...b'coz ur living in d present...if u keep running back to u'r past...u'll never see d happiness d future holds for u...
I let my ex-bf go....finally...afterall the months of confusion and emotional stir-ups....and my current bf...well let's not talk abt him now....
Point is Ayu, ur ex-bf moved on and so must u. I know u have dat strength in u...u just need to b brave and let it out.....
There are times wen I tink back abt my ex-bf and the tears will definitely flow but at d end of it all I dry em and tell myself....he's not worth it!I know now that those tears I shed is my way of letting d hurt go bit by bit...I dun cry much now...NO...NOT BECOZ OF MY BF...but b'coz I know I'm happier now....
So that's it.....I feel like there's a lump in my throat now...coz I'm holding back my tears...I dedicate this entry to Ayu...a fren who nvr fails to make me laugh everytime I'm around her...*muacks*

2006-03-13T21:45:00.000+08:00

I start this blog as I really am estuating underneath...here is d story...
I came to my bf's house today to just hang out wif him...then I decided to sorta do some spying by checking his MSN log files...
Hey ho...to my surprise...he has been chatting to his ex-gf...and as I read on...he has a nickname for her which I can't seem to recall...then came d big blow...he typed "I miss you"...what the hell!!!
Tears of anger were already dwelling yet I braved my self to check of the next largest log file wif a girly nick...
I can't really recall her nick but she turns out to be his flirt buddy...wohooo!!!My bf has a flirt buddy whom he calls dear, baby...u get wat I mean...
I fought wif myself so that I would not blow my head off...I went to the toilet...he went to his room where the computer was...and...well I acted as if everything was ok...when he asked if I was angry...
I manage to carry on the act...even though I know he wasn't convinced...i let him sent me to school...luckily...Rasyidah, Khaiyisha and Khatijah were at the interchange so he went off coz I wanted to go to sch wif my frens...
But oh God in my heart I was estuating.....
I held all the anger but confided in my friends...thanks ayu,afah,nurul and atie for listening...
I finally got his explanation...on the fon...but...
How could he? How could he say that it was all for fun...all bcoz he was bored...?
He may not have meant the words he said...still it really hurt me...
How can I not believe that he does not miss his ex-gf as stated in the log and mean it?
Even I miss my ex-bf sumtimes but I dun say it coz I know it would not change anything...
What hurts me further is that this flirt buddy he has is a girl from NIE...named L*****
If it is true that dis L***** knows I am attached to my bf and yet she dares to regard him as a flirt buddy then by all means...I'll show her what a catfight is all about!
Then again...y would I wanna fight for my bf?? Nah...he's not worth any catfight! He's not even worth a tiny struggle!
I accepted him not for the looks (coz he's typically average-looking), not for the money (aww...c'mon,he's in NS lah!) but because of the devotion that I have never seen sumone have towards me...which he had for me...
But it seems this devotion seems to have fade...maybe it's because of me and my past behaviour towards him...still if u're really devoted to sumone...revenge is never in u'r dictionary...
He tried to make it up by personally sending me a bouquet of tulips (my 2nd fav flower) but even that couldn't cheer me up. I just took the bouquet and closed d door...
Now he's downstairs...waiting for me to accept his apologies...and to give him another chance...
Forgiving him is do-able...to give him another chance is what I have yet to consider...